2jan2026

Hoping you had a pleasant or relaxing or joyful interim between xmas and new years. I, er, spent that time reading a fanfic deconstruction (in three volumes) of Pern that puts my little squib utterly to shame. Though very well written I'm not certain these books would appeal to someone unfamiliar with the Pern universe, but should you like to try them out, the first one is novella lengthed (and if you like that one, vol II is about standard novel size and vol III is an 800,000+ word monster, and absolutely amazing); I recommend the AO3 site if you've the patience to click through one chapter at a time, because the comments are insightful, the author responds, and for me at least it added an extra layer of interest. The author's website, however, has all sorts of art on it, and is easier to navigate, though. Via slacktiverse, specifically Silver Adept's Pern deconstructions.

So. In effect I took the week off from finishing up late xmas (& now late new year's) gifts, working out, tidying up, doing end-of-year finances, or much of anything else, really.

But now I feel ready to be doing again, and hope you do too.

And as it's not yet the 12th day of xmas, here's a giftwrap (which as I recall was of something given last fall. Never let it be said that I'm not perpetually behind.)

26dec2025

For those of you who celebrate Christmas, hoping you had a good one; (And a delightful Thursday, for those don't;)

But of course, not everyone did, and what with all the crap going on here, Ukraine's issues have basically dropped off USian consciousness—you'd think all those 2nd amendment people would be really interested in this underdog's fate, given the parallels to this country's founding, and how France helped us... It just sucks.

Yet, the Ukrainian people persist. Here are some soldiers, defiantly playing Carol of the Bells.

Closer to home, Flatbush cats has a howto on making winter shelters for feral cats. Seems dead simple, but is there was, at least to my eyes, a number of important details.

Aaaaaaaand that's as much interaction with politics as I care to deal with today. Here's my little pushback against cruelty and ugliness.

17dec2025

Carol of the Bells is my favourite xmas song, which, given that it was evidently originally a New Year's harbinger of spring (and why yes, I think the year ought to start with spring, just like those ancient pagans) and not actually a xmas song at all, seems entirely appropriate.

I knew it hailed from Ukraine, and was under the impression that original melody was thousands of years old, but wasn't aware of its more modern history...I found all the AI video clips in the video a tad on the disconcerting side, but surely Ukraine's culture—for which Carol was an ambassador a hundred years ago when a choir toured worldwide to celebrate the country's newfound independence from the USSR—deserves recognition just as much now, as the country once again battles for its independence (from Russia. Sigh. The more things change, the more they stay the same....)

On a slightly brighter note (ha!) the splendidly ebullient Anna Lapwood gives a tour of her signature instrument, the organ explaining that playing it involves setting up a lot of sequences, akin to subroutines in a computer. Also that organs just sometimes randomly play notes. Oh, and she explains the meaning of ‘pulling out all the stops’:)

This giftwrap certainly doesn't do that, but it's pretty enough. Enjoy;)

16dec2025

Today, I'm doing difficult linkies...

I've recently read two re-interpretations of the classic horror tale The Fall of the House of Usher: Silvia Moreno-Garcia's Mexican Gothick and T Kingfisher's What Moves the Dead. For the record I found the former more horrifying and the latter more to my taste, mostly because Moreno-Garcia's heroine is everything I'm not, and though I admired the character, I didn't especially like her, and one of my failings as a reader is that I want to identify with the protagonists.

Both books are very good(1), and I recommend them highly if atmospheric horror is your thing (for someone who doesn't like horror I sure seem to consume a lot of it...) or you enjoy seeing modern interrogations of older stories. Neither of these books, however, came close to the horror I experienced while listening to one of Rebecca Watson's recent youtube videos, this one on the Freebirth movement. This appalling approach could be considered a subset of homebirth, which is why it made me so angry and sickened.

Homebirth, with a trained and experienced lay midwife, as I practised it, is for those for whom it is appropriate is a safe alternative to hospital birth—safer, in fact, if you've a particular horror of caesareans, as I did; freebirth, particularly as practised by the Free Birth Society, promotes wild pregnancy, meaning pregnancy without any prenatal care. (The irony being that in the wild, animals themselves may midwife; elephants are one such example. And other animals, on average, give birth more easily than we do.)

Roundabout the 16:30 mark, Watson observes what makes this dangerous approach so appealing:

...make women want to look outside of the medical establishment. Why am I paying through the nose for treatment that is so bad that I might end up getting a major surgery that I don't want or need or so bad that I might end up feeling so violated and destroyed that I need therapy and never want a doctor to touch me again? That's the loss of agency that a good con artist recognizes. The gap where they can slide in and make some coin whether they believe what they're selling or not.

Practically the first expectation a competent midwife will set up is that there are no perfect births, even more so than a doctor, because the less than 1% of people (in the US; homebirth is far more common in, ahem, more advanced countries) who pursue homebirth want to be in charge, and have what they hope is their idea of a great outcome: of course you plan and prepare, but reality has a way of upsetting those hopes; whereas the freebirth movement seems to be actively selling the idea of beautiful, complication free experience.

That's a lovely dream, but birth can have significant risks, and though the rather mundane ‘failure to progress’ is (I understand) much more likely than the blood-and-gore drama of placenta praevia or pre-eclampsia, nevertheless, it's not a condition for someone untrained to do on their own—I was in labor for over 10 days, (nights, technically—usually from about 10pm–6am) and think I would've gone out of my mind without experienced midwives to keep an eye on me and look out for danger signs (falling fetal heart rate and rising temperature, a sign of infection). Even as it was, the midwives joked that I belonged in the Guiness Book of World Records.

Because of the experienced midwife and her two apprentices, I avoided a caesarean (though not, alas, a hospital birth; mine, which pissed me off, was according to the midwives a ‘good’ one, so I can barely imagine the trauma other pregnant people have suffered) and ended up having (more) successful homebirth thereafter, resulting in healthy babies who grew to adulthood. The Guardian freebirth article so horrified me I wasn't even able to do more than skim, but was unsurprised that the moms in that story were not so lucky. What happened was heartbreaking precisely because it didn't have to happen! They too could've had the same excellent outcomes I did!

In conclusion: homebirth—sometimes called prepared homebirth, to distinguish it from accidental parking lot type experiences, and/or women who cannot, for one reason or another, access proper pre-natal care, absolutely essential to determine, just for example, whether one is a good candidate for homebirth, because some births are high-risk, and for those, hospital birth is literally life-saving—good. “Freebirth” unequivocably bad.

Whew. That's enough angst for one day. Have a sweet, pretty picture of a beautiful rose.

(1)One complaint about Gothic, frex, is an unconvincing romantic subplot, which after thinking about it for a bit, I realized from a Doylian perspective (i.e. needs of the plot) why the story went that way. Thought about it some more, and felt had the author made a more convincing case a) I would've liked the protag a lot better and b) it would've cranked up the horror even more—win-win. As it was I had to do some heavy lifting/rationalizing as a reader to make it work, because the text as written was for me unpersuasive.

15dec2025

Though based on much older series, I do have beads made recently, i.e. this year:)

Also, links, of course.

• Skydiver and astronomer capture a stunning image of the sun appropriately titled The Fall of Icarus;)
• A version of putting Christ back in Christmas that atheist me can totally get behind:) via one of Slack's commenters.
• Yay, Frieren season 2 is due out in 2026! This anime about an elf and her fellow dwarven and human D&D type campaigners starts at the end of their quest to defeat the big bad, and given her millennia long lifespan, she inevitably will outlive them—so her real quest, to reckon with this, is what the series is about. I rank this right up there with Cowboy Bebop, it's that good.
• One reason I like Frieren is that it's not appallingly violent, unlike, say, the Predator series, which so far I can tell is sort of a competitor to the Alien franchise? Never gonna watch any of the movies but I found Second Wind's analysis of How Dan Trachtenberg Built a Grand Unified Theory of Predator (via) fascinating: the teal deer is that older films reflect cultural anxieties about US colonialism and masculinity in the wake of losing the Vietnam war, and the newer ones recap similar themes vis-a-vis the Middle East.
• Anyway, really enjoyed the analysis (which is sophisticated, i.e. aware of intersectional feminism as a lens) of the films...which, unnnnnh, were not, seeing as they feature alien jaws of these human looking fingers, okaaaaaaayyy, framing mouths consisting of female genitalia, uh, wuuuut? Second Wind acknowledges this, but never really gets into the absolute horror and insecurities men would have to have of women to make such a design choice. (To be fair, Alien also features vagina dentata, and penis headed aliens, which at least has the cachet of both sexes, but again, the chest bursting is pretty clearly a stand-in for pregnancy body-horror—but that actually speaks to women just as much!)

Oh yeah, something new, something blue—beads! Enjoy.

13dec2025

Oh, look, holiday-themed earrings, I should post those!

And gee, I even have an intro, that I wrote exactly a year ago:

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Ow, ow, ow. When the dr tells you not to lift anything over 5lbs (about 2 KG) after your top surgery/double masectomy for at least 4 weeks, they mean it, even if you were lifting 20x that just before the surgery, because while the muscles are plenty strong enough there are all these internal stitches connecting said muscles to your skin & subcutaneous tissue, and that interface, er, yanno, wound, is not.

This includes cast iron dutch ovens fulla casserole.

And no, clamping your elbows to your sides to recruit your biceps and engaging your core is not a suitable workaround.

(Up till now I wasn't able to pick out the various origins of discomfort amongst the cacophony of drains, adhesive rashes, compression garments, but now I can, and have a much better sense of what that pain is and what's causing it. [And oh yeah, 2025 me—a year out from this surgery—would like to let you know that I'm still delighted with it, and still non-binary, making my experience bog-standard, despite what the fearmongers would have you believe.] —Thus endeth my public service announcement.)

On what I strongly suspect is a far more interesting note, here's the latest a year old link farm:

• Via FTB, Why I stopped being anti-Woke by some youtuber named Darkmatter2525—I got about 20 minutes into this hour long monologue, and concluded I had the same problem with this guy that caused him to fall down the anti-SJW/progressive rabbithole in the first place, which is that I have not very much patience for his irritation at losing all that white male privilege to which he automatically felt entitled as an adolescent. I'm happy he's matured, but, eh, still kinda annoying. Which you know? not my cuppa tea, and that's fine; it's pretty clear I'm not his, either, and that's okay!
• Here's stderr's and commenters’ favourite youtube/spotify/podcasts. Goodie.
• How to Get Rid of Dowager Hump (aka fixing that hunched text/computer posture) —I've done most of these exercises either as part of my KB workouts or had them prescribed by PTs, but it's nice to have them collected together.
• Angela Collier has a long-form video about Richard Feinman, a brilliant physicist for whom brilliance was not enough: he wanted to be (perceived) as a towering genius on the level of Newton or Einstein (not to mention super-sexy) —a sort of Indiana Jones of physicists—and in the US, by and large, he succeeded; but at the cost of women and girls dealing with ‘Feinman bros’. I never encountered that, but I did know a Heinlein bro, and it was pretty much the same obnoxious white-male obliviousness (that, say our dude Darkmatter2525 suffered from during his adolescence...) I loved this exploration, but if sexism is just a meh issue for you, it's not gonna appeal.
• Liking this list of 10 Best Nonfiction books for 2024

Or, yanno, check out some three year old earrings, based on a design that dates back at least to 2017...I'll have some newer beads, soon, promise!